It's very difficult to see the person you love in pain. DH and I talked about this to prepare for labor, but at least after that pain, you have something to show for it. My poor sweet husband is in great pain, I'd like to say it's getting a little better, but the truth is he is very down. This is by far the hardest thing we've ever done. This has been a pretty shitty year. He'll get better every day, even just a little bit. The doctors finally agreed to give him something stronger so maybe soon he'll feel more like himself.
We didn't think this would be easy, we knew it would suck. I'd like to write a positive post and tell you everything is okay, but each day as I walk back from my morning hospital visit and think about how much this sucks and how long the road ahead is, it just doesn't make it easier that we've completed one small step. I just wish I could do more for him. I wish he didn't have to go through this. The good news is that they got the cancer, he will get better. I just have to keep telling myself and him that.